Discovering ME

One of the best things about being home in Penang is being able to go for hour-long walks around the area here. One of the nest things about these walks is being totally by myself, with so much space to reflect and think about the years past, and what I'd do differently.

So here's what I've gathered so far:

1) I want to take control - of my time at work, my free time, my career, my life. Too much of "going with the flow" and waiting for things to come to me just cannot cut it anymore. The best years of my life are passing me by and I'd better get a better grip on them.

2) It's all about control - to attend mass on Sunday

3) To do things that feel good later and not now, like exercising, going to church, volunteering my time. Instead of going for endlessly long shopping trips, watching reruns of CSI, you know what I mean. Mindless things that do nothing for my body and spirit.

4) To lower my pride and guard, and call up my friends more often. To have faith in people and give them the benefit of the doubt.

It's not going to be easy. But it has to be done, simple as that.

Looking back at the times since I came back from offshore, the blog entries, reflections of floundering in the office after 2 years of offshore straightforwardness and knowing exactly what to do. I have learnt, some things more that I ever imagined

I really feel like there is only so little time left, and I MUST make the most of what I have and use NOW to achieve my FUTURE.

Take A Bow, '08

In 2008, I have:
1) Lost 10 pounds, almost without effort
2) Found myself struggling for the 1st time to keep up at work3) bitten off more than I can chew - sad to say that I will continue chewing the cud straight into 2009
4) Visited Cambodia, Spain and London
5) Seriously rethinking if I really want an assignment into a temperate country
6) Invested in the stock market for the 1st time, and feeling the pain of it - yikes!
8) Found some new people I could really look up, and, sadly, down on (truthfully, I do, I can't help it)
9) Spent, spent, spent and more money than the past 2 years put together (ah, the perils of workign in KL and having almost 24-hour access to Amazon and eBay)
10) Spent half my life living out of my Samsonite in 5-star hotels in KL - and found myself missing my narrow little bed offshore and my new bed AK bought me;
11) Found myself missing my parents so, so much;
12) Missed out on church quite a lot, shamefully
13) Fractured another foot, balancing it out
14) Said goodbye to 2 good friends - 1 to Kl and 1 to Russia;
15) Had my house broken into, my stuff stolen; and went through the achingly slow processes of getting my life on paper back together again, which led to-
16) more cursing of the bloody Malaysian beauracracy
17) Realised that I have people in my life who really, really love me;
18) Experienced for myself how happy a fat, not-so-little cat can make me;
19) Fought and made up about 3 million times;
20) FINALLY got round to Facabook-ing, and now can't get enough for it :)