Long radio silence, I know. I bumped into a friend who was in Miri and also moved to KL, and we agreed, there just isn't enough time. There's always someplace to go, some movie or live performance to catch, something on.
I recently managed to watch a repeat of the MTV VMA's. Award shows are kinda my guilty pleasure, along with reality cooking shows, chocolate, instant noodles...you get the rift. No nourishment and all guilty pleasure. I think enough has been said about Ms. Cyrus's twerking. Hey, she'll go down in showbusiness history. I always manage to see one or two performances that I can't forget in this type of show, and this year, my favourites are Macklemore's Same Love and Katy Perry's Roar, sung live under the Brooklyn Bridge.
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
I loved Katy's performance - man, it's not easy to dance, skip then sing your heart out onstage.
You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
But there's another reason why this song resonated with me, at this point in time. These days, I admit, one of the main reasons I am so freakin' bogged down by work is because I just can't say no to whatever people choose to throw at me. Then there's the pockets of bullying. People who think they can get away with raised voices and by expressing outrage at the slightest issue. In the beginning I tried to be the better person, to stay calm at all times. There came a point when I felt like I was heading for a nervous breakdown - I honestly felt like I was losing control of myself. I realise now, sometimes you just gotta push back and NOT take it. Stand up for yourself, take charge.
I did, in pockets. This song, and Katy's boxing-champion performance, is going on my playlist and embedded in my brain. .
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything
These lyrics, I could be singing them and they would all be true.
I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess You held me down, but I got up
Well now we got Macklemore. Hip-hop just got a whole lot cooler. Back to the song, I find the climax was Mary and Jennifer Hudson crooning "Not crying on Sundays...Love is Patient". According to Mary, it was referencing her feelings about being gay and a church-going Christian. I've said it before and I'll say it again - I don't believe in my heart that God created same-sex loving people to be hated and discriminated upon.
