Sunday, June 8, 2008

Kingdom of Cambodia - Siam Reap & Angkor




Well, a lot of walking, a lot of climbing up stairs designed to make us crawl/grovel on all fours in heat that seared the skin and numbed the mind.

But it was fun, really. And those temples of the God-Kings of Angkor are really a sight to behold, monuments to their vision, ambition and ego. After the fall of Angkor, add nature and another 500 years and the result is a wild mixture of stone and roots, melded into one entity.















Kingdom of Cambodia - Phnom Penh


AK and Deb in front of the Independence Monument in Phnom Penh.

Nearby the airport, you can pay some USD to shoot real AK-47s/shotguns, thanks to the Cambodian soldiers trying to make an extra living. We paid USD25 to shoot 5 rounds of the shotgun. Not my cup of tea, I was terrified of the whole gun+shoot thingy.


City Sights:


Phnom Penh is NOT a pedestrian friendly city, let me tell you. Dozens of motorcycles with entire families on them (mothers clutching their babies, children in the front and in between)/tuk-tuks/cars heading towards all directions at a time. It took us a good few minutes to muster our courage to jaywalk across and pray for the best.

You can carry almost anything on a motorcycle in Phnom Penh - we saw a couple dozen chickens, an entire pig all trussed up (still alive) and immobile in a long basket and one that really made me cringe - a large sheet of glass being held upright by the pillion rider.


Sign at the Killing Fields. I don't really wanna post too much about it or S-21 here, suffice to say that it is a sordid reminder of the deepest darkest deeds the human soul is capable of.

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Kingdom of Cambodia

We're baa............accck from the Kingdom of Cambodia.

Some lessons learnt from this trip:

1) When it comes to packing medication, prepare for the worst (and I mean worst). And don't think just because we didn't experience it in Paris/Rome/Amsterdam/Bario, doesn't mean our stomachs are made of lead. Enter Phnom Penh and Siam Reap, banana-coconut milk shakes, fish amok and one million flies in the vicinity and yes oh yes, we're not as invulnerable as we thought we were. Thank goodness we passed on the spiced river snails and deep fried creepy-crawlies (beetles, tiny whole frogs, crickets, hairy looking-spiders the size of 50-cent coins).

2) When it comes to money, don't even think of scraping by. Always size up the wad of cash by at least 50%. Sure, it just might get stolen, but at least you escape that super lousy feeling of having to count pennies, not because you can't afford it but simply because of under-estimation of world inflation rates. And prices quoted in the Lonely Planet written in 2005 ARE NOT going to hold up in 2008. *Smacks forehead*

3) We got it good here in Malaysia. Clean water, constant electricity supply. In Cambodia diesel generators abound because of the inconsisteny of the electricity supply, and our tuk-tuk driver used water from a rain puddle from the shower the night before to wash down his motorcycle. Talk about making the best of what one has.

4) Do we really know how good we got it? Nevermind the corruption in out government, at least we didn't have our government+intellectuals+educated class almost totally wiped out by a paranoid Paris-educated radicalist who wanted a nation of farmers and declared Year Zero when he took power. At least we know where most of our aunties/uncles/ grandfathers/mothers/fathers are. Most Cambodians have to pay their respects at the Choeng Ek Killing fields to the Stupa with 5000 skulls, because they don't know where they're buried, because they were murdered in such a way that belied all respect for the human soul.

I truly wonder how is a nation to heal, emotionally, spiritually after such an atrocity by its very own. But you gotta give them credit for their pluck and their spirit.

We have found Cambodians to be honest, gentle and so hospitable it made staying in the guesthouses so special. We'd like to thank the Manor Guesthouse, for their wonderful map and directions, for arranging our transport for us, for shielding us with umbrellas when we arrived there in pouring rain. We thank the Rosy Guesthouse in Siam Reap for their undemanded concern when AK was sick, for their personalized room service, for getting us on the Tuk-Tuk to the clinic. To our wonderful Tuk Tuk driver Vithu who guided us throughout Siam Reap over bumpy roads and sandstorms and rain, who made sure we were bundled up in the little cart and who embodies, with his determination to learn and speak English to guide us, and his caring for us, all that is so magnificient about this country.

So thank you, Kingdom of Cambodia, and my very best to you.

Friday, May 9, 2008

Getting Better

I'm feeling so much better today.

Last night, I fell asleep almost immediately after we got home from dinner, woke up at 3 in the morning and mourned the exit of Jason Castro from AI and the fact I might never get to see him again. I tidied my room and looked high and low for my orthopeadic surgeon's referral letter, but instead I found a couple hundred bucks' worth of shopping vouchers!

I listened to Innocent, to Travelin' Thru, Hallelujah, Let It Be, Always Be My Baby and relived the magic moments on AI (call me shallow or dizzy but so be it). Sigh. It has been a great season - so grateful am onshore based just to be able to watch this.

I read Anthony Robbins' Awaken the Giant Within and reaffirmed some beliefs. I've been sitting on my ass too long and just allowing things to happen to me. Nothing or nobody can make me feel anything. Period.

This afternoon, Old Big Boss handed me two tickets to tonight's show of Miri Jazz Festival! That means AK and I get to go on both days!

Also, my How to Be a Domestic Goddess arrived in Penang (update - I like How to Eat better, but this one has photos!) , plus I bought a LeSportSac tote from eBay. In a very un-me colour and pattern, but hey, one cannot live on black alone.

My American Idol

Thank you Jason Castro.




This performance was, to me, magic.


You made me a true fan of American Idol for the first time.


I'll pretend it's not your deep blue eyes (I think I have a thing for eyes - have you seen AK's?) and adorable baby photos. You made me realize that it is possible to remain yourself - honest, down to earth, humble and true to oneself, and it is possible in front of millions of people. It's ok to goof up, so long as one stays humble and is truthful about it. And it is absolutely necessary not to take oneself seriously, and that is what's endearing.


To take criticism honestly, but never let it get you down.

This guy, with his goofiness, funny, slightly cringe-inducing interview answers and all represents what I truly want to be (cringe again) - to be honest, sincere and not worry about what others think, because honesty to oneself is utmost.

So thank you. I'm actually glad he's off American Idol in a way (although I don't get to see him anymore...............) because it would be a shame to let the "Hollywood-ness" get to him. I'd buy his album in a throbbing heartbeat.

And that's what it's all about.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Learning By Doing

I promised myself that I would not take MH2598 Depart 2040 flights anymore. Reaching home after 11, falling asleep afer 1 am, then dragging myself out of bed the next morning to an empty office, because everyone is still holing up in their hotels in KL.



But that's exactly what I did.



Miri Jazz Festival this weekend, and AK and I have tickets!! At least something to look forward to.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Cruise Control

I think I really need an energy boost, not so much physically but mentally.

Why is it that I used to get so excited, adrenaline pumping and all gung-ho about my job, looking forward to each new day?

Now, I dread my workdays. I feel that I have either arrived too late, or am not good enough to make a real difference.

Had a conversation with one of my many bosses, and he mentioned how easy it was to just cruise along with the Titanic (ok, Titanic is my word for it) instead of flagging things up and really forcing change to happen. He talked about his expectations for me and why I was put into this team in the first place, despite warnings from new boss about "not rocking the boat too much."

Which reminds me of a question my Core Leadership Program course instructor once asked her class - Why do I want to be a leader?

I remember the answer that sprang in my mind straightaway - because I believe that I can make a difference. And I really did.

Fast forward just 5 months, and here I am, struggling to find my footing here.